La Douleur Exquise (For My Sake)

Author’s Note: This piece was written sometime ago and I had just gotten around to publishing it. The photos used are not mine.

Excerpt: I realized that I was not a priority. Never a priority. I was not in that priority list. He made that clear… Continue reading


From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

Sad news that the community site Im will be shutting down. There are so many things I have learned, so many people I had the pleasure to know, so many to thank.
I listed all the things I learned within LDRBN and I wrote a letter for them. Continue reading

More than 365 Days In

I’ve seen a lot of relationships fail. Even more so with long distance relationships because the distance (aside from everything else) just makes it even harder to keep the boat afloat.

My first long distance relationship didn’t work out as I would’ve hoped. Sure, there had been ups and downs through it all (mostly good, though) however he just gave up after almost 6 months.

We had something good. Better, in fact, if I would compare what we had with the last relationship I was in. But all of that, he neatly packaged and sent it back to me.

It was hard and I sort of promised myself not to get entangled in a similar relationship like that. I decided that I, too, wasn’t capable for a distant relationship.

I guess I broke that promise.

It has been a year–more than, in fact–that L and I had been together. And I can honestly tell you that it has not been easy. There were times that I wanted to give up because of the terrible lack of communication. I am that sort of person who wants attention; I’m weak.

During the middle of our one year, I was mentally and emotionally preparing myself for that inevitable split so it would hurt less since I had experienced that on my previous LDR. I was really expecting things would do downhill since we talked less and less everyday. I was, to be honest, waiting for that dreadful line that would ultimately lead to our separation: We need to talk.

It never came though.

Not 8 months in. Not even when we had reached our 11th month.

I was baffled but very, very happy. Even more so when we reached our first year.

I had blogged about some of our struggles. Despite the things that he and I had been through, however, I am still at awe that I had–or rather, we had–made it this far. I never would have predicted this outcome.  I am still taken by surprise every time that I would ponder on it.

Have you ever felt the same way with someone you love?

As we both enter numero dos of this relationship, I’m expecting a lot more struggles and bumps along the road.

Wish me luck!


The Perks of being in a Long Distance Relationships

Being in a long distance relationship is often times difficult. There are a lot of hurdles and potholes one encounters in contrast to those who are in short distance relationships. However, despite all these downers, there are a lot of things to be happy about when you are in a long distance relationship.

Hangin’ out with friends

Being with friends and spending time with them, and being weird without him raising a “WTF” eyebrow at you.


 No Shaving

You can be as hairy as you want to be. He wont be there to notice.

no shave

You can be as gross as you want to be

ahhh.. Farting without the guilt.


Sweet, sweet solitude

There’s nothing more nicer than me-time.



And when you both get together, it would always feel like you’re meeting each other for the first time. There will be butterflies in your belly and a smile on your face that wouldn’t fade away.


Blogging Break and a Sneak Peek

It has been a while since I last blogged. I remember blogging about the latest challenge that I joined which is the Relationship Appreciation Journal by LDRBN. But before I discuss about that any further, I just want you all to know, my dear readers, that I will be taking a blogging break.

My work schedule has been intense these past few days that being able to blog with gusto is nigh impossible. I have been working 16hours for a few days now and sometimes I have “sliding” schedules which are exhausting. For example, I’m working today in the afternoon shift then I will be reporting for the morning shift the following day (8 hour “break” only). Every time I arrive home, I flop on my bed too tired to even wash up and change my scrubs.


My face after a LONG shift

I do not know how long this break will be. However, I shall be doing LDRBN’s Instagram challenges since they take very little time to do.

Now for the other challenge.

I had already made the journal. I sacrificed sleep (I just got off the night shift) so that I could go to the mall in order to look for craftbook and scrapbook decor to sassy-fy my dull-looking notebook. I wanted it to look vintage but it was hard looking for those things unless I print out some vintage inspired wallpaper. However, I do not have the patience to browse the web for a design that would catch my attention.

This is the finished journal. I placed both our names with craft foam. I shall be adding a few more accessories to the design.

jounlThere you have it. This is an exclusive (yeah, “exclusive”) sneak preview of the journal itself. I had already started filling up the pages with cute stuff. Will update you all soon.

And have a Happy Valentine’s Day.

I shall be spending mine watching Deadpool with friends. HAHA!

Relationship Challenge: Relationship Appreciation Journal (Prologue)

Anyway, this month’s LDRBN challenge is the Relationship Appreciation Journal. As the name implies, we would each keep a journal (for 30 days) and jot down all the little things we appreciate about each other, our love, or our relationship as a whole. We could decorate the journal if we want to but I know he will just have a regular notebook. By the end of each week, we would have a Skype session and share what we had written down. Continue reading

Relationship Challenge: A Year in Review

So in LDRBN, we have monthly relationship challenges. They are a lot of fun to do, according to those who had participated in previous challenges.
Note: I shall present the story to you guys in a Q & A format so that it would be easier for y’all to read. We did 1/3 of the prompts provided. Continue reading