La Douleur Exquise (For My Sake)

Author’s Note: This piece was written sometime ago and I had just gotten around to publishing it. The photos used are not mine.

Excerpt: I realized that I was not a priority. Never a priority. I was not in that priority list. He made that clear… Continue reading


More than 365 Days In

I’ve seen a lot of relationships fail. Even more so with long distance relationships because the distance (aside from everything else) just makes it even harder to keep the boat afloat.

My first long distance relationship didn’t work out as I would’ve hoped. Sure, there had been ups and downs through it all (mostly good, though) however he just gave up after almost 6 months.

We had something good. Better, in fact, if I would compare what we had with the last relationship I was in. But all of that, he neatly packaged and sent it back to me.

It was hard and I sort of promised myself not to get entangled in a similar relationship like that. I decided that I, too, wasn’t capable for a distant relationship.

I guess I broke that promise.

It has been a year–more than, in fact–that L and I had been together. And I can honestly tell you that it has not been easy. There were times that I wanted to give up because of the terrible lack of communication. I am that sort of person who wants attention; I’m weak.

During the middle of our one year, I was mentally and emotionally preparing myself for that inevitable split so it would hurt less since I had experienced that on my previous LDR. I was really expecting things would do downhill since we talked less and less everyday. I was, to be honest, waiting for that dreadful line that would ultimately lead to our separation: We need to talk.

It never came though.

Not 8 months in. Not even when we had reached our 11th month.

I was baffled but very, very happy. Even more so when we reached our first year.

I had blogged about some of our struggles. Despite the things that he and I had been through, however, I am still at awe that I had–or rather, we had–made it this far. I never would have predicted this outcome.  I am still taken by surprise every time that I would ponder on it.

Have you ever felt the same way with someone you love?

As we both enter numero dos of this relationship, I’m expecting a lot more struggles and bumps along the road.

Wish me luck!


The Perks of being in a Long Distance Relationships

Being in a long distance relationship is often times difficult. There are a lot of hurdles and potholes one encounters in contrast to those who are in short distance relationships. However, despite all these downers, there are a lot of things to be happy about when you are in a long distance relationship.

Hangin’ out with friends

Being with friends and spending time with them, and being weird without him raising a “WTF” eyebrow at you.


 No Shaving

You can be as hairy as you want to be. He wont be there to notice.

no shave

You can be as gross as you want to be

ahhh.. Farting without the guilt.


Sweet, sweet solitude

There’s nothing more nicer than me-time.



And when you both get together, it would always feel like you’re meeting each other for the first time. There will be butterflies in your belly and a smile on your face that wouldn’t fade away.


Le Soleil et La Lune: We balance each other

They say opposites attract, however, I read in a journal that within a relationship, they [opposites] do not. I was puzzled as to why this was so since I grew up thinking that, in a relationship, each should be like on a whole different scale like for example: hot-cold, and up-down. Continue reading

Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays everyone!
How was your Christmas? I was supposed to spend mine in the hospital but, as luck may have it, work ended at 10. I got to spend Christmas with my family. The only thing I didn’t get to do was go to church with them.
Speaking of spending thw holidays working, I am at work as I am writing this on my phone. Got a chance to do so because it is an easy night; just a few deliveries.
Anyway, I won’t be blogging anytime soon. I have a weird schedule so I am still trying to sort out how I could insert blogging into it.
I am sorry.

Once again, Happy Holidays! Enjoy everything!